The Search

I sent Him away,

"I am not ready," I reasoned.
"I will come with You another time, when I am not busy."

But in the darkness, in the deepness of my soul, I ached.
I ached and yearned for the longing of my heart, for the hope of love, the hope of acceptance.
My heart had a hole.

I searched for filling...

I searched by doing,
Doing what I thought I should,
Doing, serving, sacrificing,
But it didn't help fill the hole.

I began to roam...
Trying to fill the hole with what the world says satisfies...

The hole only became bigger,
The cruelty of the world and my decisions began to crash upon me, leaving me in despair...


And then... I encountered Him.
He came...turned the Light on... revealed His heart of love.

"I found the One I adore, my Beloved!" Song of Songs 3:4 TPT

His love began to fill the hole, fill the yearn, take the ache and the pain away.
He truly was the One I had been searching for...

I fastened myself to Him,
He fastened Himself to me,
And we became joined,
Him in me, me in Him.

He is my Beloved and I am His.
He came, and I don't want Him to leave,
No, we are together now.

A season of a new grace...just like He promised.
Flowers began to appear and the birds began to sing...

Yes, my Beloved,
I will come away with You, Jesus,
Come away and allow You to wash me, cleanse me, catch those "foxes."

I will come away and allow You to love me completely!

Song of Songs 3