Fixing My Eyes

I fix my eyes upon You
My Beloved, my Father, my Daddy, my Help, my Strength

I fix my eyes on the One
Who is looking upon me in delight...

I fix my eyes on You
The Makes of heaven and earth
The One who never grows weary and stays to the end...

I fix my eyes on the One
Who loves me completely
And who never leaves, never disappoints, never fails...

I fix my eyes on the One
Who carries me, intercedes for me, believes in me
Planned me and thought me into being...

I fix my eyes on the Mighty One
Who is loving kindness,
The perfect One
Who paid for my sin
The One who has no boundaries, no limitations
The One who always was and always will be...

I fix my eyes on
My friend
My Shepherd
On the One who offers His hand, and leads the way...

I fix my eyes on the One
Who is constantly pursuing me
Knocking, waiting,
Beckoning me to come to Him
Even though I am weary, heavy laden, muddy and dirty...

“Come and find rest” He pleads
“Come and enjoy all the provisions that I died for so you could obtain!”

My only response can be
To come
And fasten my eyes
Upon this pure love...
And hold on tight
Trust
And know that He is truth
He will help
 And in Him are all the possibilities of heaven!!

Peace to You

Thank you Jesus
That Your broken body and poured out blood paid the price for me to have PEACE.

“Peace to you!”
You repeat and repeat...
Oh how You want us to receive this gift...

Peace
A word so small but so encompassing

Peace
Peace instead of fear
As I trust You

Peace
Peace instead of worry
As I trust You

Peace
Peace instead of chaos
As I trust You

Peace
Peace instead of disunity
As I trust You

Peace
Peace instead of hate
As I trust You

Peace
Peace instead of loneliness
As I trust You

Peace in the storm
Peace in the new, the unknown, the familar, the circumstance
As I trust You

Peace in my body, soul and spirit...

Peace because I am forgiven
Peace because You are near
Peace because I am Yours...

Peace
Acquired because You were willing

To allow those nails to rip and tear Your flesh and hold You to the cross

To allow Your side to be pierced, and your scalp to be torn with the thorns

Willing to go there...to the cross
And take my sin, my shame, my guilt, my condemnation, my sickness upon Yourself.

“Peace I give you,” You repeat...

Thank you Jesus for this precious, unfathomable gift of Peace!

Steady and Strong

I am a steady and strong woman of God
A steady and strong child of God

He keeps me that way
My Daddy
As I trust Him
And believe He is who He says He is
And I am who He says I am...

Steady and strong
He keeps me that way...

When my body tells me the opposite
When the whispering of the accuser tells me otherwise...
I need to remember
That I am holding His hand
And He is strong and steady
And He keeps me strong and steady!

My God is forever faithful, able,
Always keeping me
Strong and steady!

The Blessing of Life Itself

So often as a child, as a teen, as a young adult...
I gazed upon this same scene
As I walked out the door of my house, or walked up and down the hill to the barn...

But I do not remember the beauty, the splendor, the treasure
that I see here tonight...
this beauty that takes my breathe away...

Faintly, I remember those stirrings, those thoughts of
'This is a beautiful place!"
But nothing like the sentiment I have tonight after 40 years...

Why?
Is it because the familiar of today, the routine, the business of our everyday
We miss the treasure, the gift, the poured out blessing?
Or
Maybe the years that have pasted and the experiences we have experienced
Have made the treasures of the past become greater...

I don't want to miss the treasure that is in front of me today
The beauty, the specialness of the relationship, the poured out blessing,

Or the blessing of life itself!

My Light

When I bring You into the picture Lord
You turn the light on...
Because You are the Light!!

You turn on the Light
So I can see the face of the One who throws those accusations at me
The face of the one uttering negativity, and grumbling,
And you let me see their pain, their fear, their wounds...

You turn the Light on so I can know the truth...
About what my body feels, what my body hears, what my body sees...

You are the Light
And You turn the Light on...

So I can see the frustration, the chains...
Of that driver who was so rude to me.

You turn the Light on so I can
Bless and not curse
Give thanks and not murmur
Rejoice instead of complain
Laugh instead of cry
Extend a helping hand instead of a harsh word...

You are my Light and my Salvation
Your Light saves me from
The enemy of worry
The enemy of fear
The enemy of offense
The enemy of bitterness, resentment, despair...

Your Light saves me from the accuser, the false prophet, the liar, the deceiver...

The Light of Jesus lets the sunshine in
And allows me to see the goodness of the Lord in my land...

Thank you Lord for being my Light
And turning the Light on so I can see!

Why Did I Let Him Go?

Why did I let Him go...
Now my heart aches for Him...

How the heart aches for that something...
That something that is missing...

You have searched
You have looked... tried hard
You thought you knew what it was...
But the hole, the ache remains...

Oh yes,
You put the smile on
You function, even laugh...
But inside you ache... you cry
You hunger and thirst for that something or that someone
What?
What will satisfy?
What will fill the hole?
What will connect with your soul and say
All is well...

Precious one,
You are missing your soul’s true love.
The One who knit you to your mother’s womb and breathed life into you.
Inside of your soul
Your Maker is calling you, inviting you to come close to Him...

Precious one.
Only when your heart responds to His voice and you come
Will you find the missing
The Something your heart longs for...

You were created to know Him, to experience His love.
He is the only One who can satisfy the ache and fill the hole...

This is a Light Day

Thank you Lord for being Light...
Father Light...
Father light that lights up that seemingly dark circumstance
With the hope of heaven
The truth of Your Word

Your Light that opens my eyes to see...
To see
The futility of all my fears
Fear of the “what if’s”
The fragmentation of my thoughts that have no concrete evidence...
Fear that has stolen joy and peace from me day after day...

Your light opens my eyes to see
The other side of the picture.

My picture errors in thought
Because impossible is in my picture
“That could never happen” is in my picture...

But Your picture sees it...
And Your Light reveals Your picture to me..
Your picture of
“Desiring to give me everything in abundance
More than expected
Life in its fullness until I overflow...” John 10:10

Yes
Your Light lights up who You are
And who You want to be for me...

And because this is a Light day...
I can believe...
I can believe that I will see the goodness of the Lord in my land today
And in this next year...
And in this decade (because I am thinking in decades today because of my decade birthday😊

My hope is in You, God
In You I am strong and full of life!

Oh the sweetness of the revelation from Your Light!!