The Process of the Search

The process of the search
For my Beloved,
The desire to fill the hole in my heart
That longs for You, God...

The search
Sometimes leads me around in circles
Going nowhere...
Or chasing fox holes...

Even when I search in the city...
The church...
My heart yearns for the missing...

Oh, but then I encounter Him...
He finds me...
I fasten myself to Him
Refusing to ever lose Him again...

I am my Beloveds and He is mine!!!!

I Miss...and He Does Too

When I look elsewhere
Get distracted
Let the shadows of the world, the cares, the anxieties
Lure me away
From gazing into His flaming eyes of passionate love...

What I let the spirit of doubt and fear prosper
And I succumb to
Tomorrow this and tomorrow that...

When my feebleness of mind only clings to intellect
And my emotions win over my spirit...

I miss the encounter
I miss the miracle, the victory
The opportunity to plant a seed...

I miss His Presence
His closeness, His Help
I miss feeling His hand in mine...

And He does too!

I Watch for You Jesus

I watch for You today, Jesus
I watch for Your delight, for the good things You are putting in my land.
I watch for Your kindness, Your gentleness
I watch for the display of Your presence...
Those God appointed meetings
God appointed conversations,
God appointed connections...
I watch for Your protection, Your provision...
I watch for Your Justice
Your tender expressions of love.
I watch for the miracle,
The longing fulfilled...the promise...
I watch for You Lord
And know You are with me, fighting for me,
I watch for You and know You want me.

I watch in anticipation and believe
That You are able to do exceedingly More
More than what I expect
More than what I ask,
More than what I can image.
Because that is who You are...
A God who is so real,
A God that is close,
A God who loves forever,
A God that does not disappoint,
A God of grace, grace, grace
A God who delights in me,
A God I can’t stop thinking about...